| Horoscopes are very interesting to me. |
[13 Jul 2009|10:53pm] |
I love reading horoscopes. My aunt is into this kind of stuff, too and I used to be kinda weirded out by it but they are surprisingly very accurate.
Moon Sign- Sagittarius
You need room to move and emotional space to explore whatever ideas or feelings arise within you. Getting locked into situations where you have to keep showing up and behaving in the same way all the time can be very boring. You're hungry to explore the world and new concepts, ever searching for more experiences in life.Greener pastures call when the walls begin to close in. Optimism is your fuel, the source of nurturance that can keep you going when others might fall into despair. Knowing that life always has more to teach you can be your joyful wake-up call every day of your life.
Motto: "Tomorrow with be another day."
Greatest Strength: Emotional honesty
Possible Weakness: Avoiding making the hard decisions
Love Forecast
July 2009
Last Month | Current Month | Next Month
Being the Social Butterfly
Your love life could get very interesting this month. If your personal life has become a little tired and boring you will not be disappointed. The delightful sounds you'll be hearing are brought to you by Venus and Mars, astrology's hottest couple. Venus, which represents beauty and attraction, enters your sign on July 5 to put you in a positive light. You should start appreciating yourself more because others are likely to find you more alluring now. This is a terrific pattern for love because your heart is opening and pulling others toward you.
Then on July 11 passionate Mars follows suit and enters Gemini to provide you with a serious boost of energy. It's hard to be stopped from having fun with these two planets in your sign. Your ability to charm others is very strong but your patience may weaken as you're anxious to play all the time. Creative activities fulfill some of your needs but socializing is really where it's at. Whether you're cuddling with one special sweetie or entertaining a group of admirers, you've got what it takes to find love. Still, you may encounter some snags when others aren't as easygoing as you.
The Full Moon on July 7 can reveal a partner's discontent or desire to control you. You might not be able to fast talk your way through this one as real issues are on the table. The New Moon on July 21 is another less-than-playful period, reminding you to take others more seriously then.
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| OH HAI DUTCH GOVMENT |
[13 Jul 2009|01:27pm] |
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 Dear Dutch government,
Thank you for reading this. I know you are reading this, because you recently signed a law which forces the Dutch internet providers to store extensive details about our internet behaviour, when we log on and to whom our e-mails go. So obviously, you have found I use Livejournal (and thanks to the rss feed: Hyves). Sure, you want to protect us from the Four Horsemen of the Infocalypse, but honestly, how many terrorists will you find by logging who surfs to aljazeera.com's server? It's just a news site, you know.
( More about internet privacy and how the Dutch government can see what you do )
What worries me most, is that *if* a crazy person would come to power, say Geert Wilders with the next elections, he or she could (ab)use all these tools you have now provided him to start his new nationalistic dictatorship. Anyone who surfs to an IP in an Islamic country: suspect! A lot of traffic coming from China to a Dutch website: suspect! You may claim you are not Big Brother, but if a New European Dictator would rise (I'm really trying hard not to score Godwin points here), you will have given him/her every tool she needs for continental supremacy, because this law is part of a European guideline. You and I know in this day and age that information is power. Even you will regret your own choices then.
Please rethink your choices.
Sincerely yours,
Your not-so-loyal-citizen-anymore
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| Late night thoughts...or early morning. |
[13 Jul 2009|03:56am] |
I have been really analyzing myself lately. I always wonder if some of my thoughts are due to fake thinking for so long- so long now that I don't realize it is fake. It's weird and I cannot explain it.
Are you who you really are or are you not? Are your thoughts your real ones? Is how you feel really how you feel about certain things? or is it now how you feel because you always wanted to feel that way and now it is to the point you DO feel that way..but it's not how you are really supposed to feel. (huuuge run on sentence)
Am I ME or is it just a mask made out of habit?
Ponder THAT sucker.
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md
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| Blunt and to the point. |
[10 Jul 2009|03:40pm] |
This note is to all the people who underestimate me. This is to those who see me as someone they think I should be, and has given me the stereotype as that. I am tired of getting classified as someone who doesn't even deserve that label. "Good little church girl". I can't begin to count how many times I was tagged as that on those pictures with the labels below them. As flattering as that is and as sweet as it is, let me take a minute to introduce you to me and if you feel like you need to whip out the judgement stick, take me off you list.
I have changed a lot since the past couple of years. For good and for the different. I don't say bad because I am who I am...my whole past is, at this moment, who I am now. And who knows, I may be different later. But I feel like I need to write this because I feel like I am almost outdated.
1. I drink- I have gotten to the point that I have gotten very sick and puked all over the place and cried like a child. I like once in awhile to be able to have a drink or...a couple and not have to freak out when someone I know from school is there. "Oh god I can't believe mollie would ever do that". No, I am not a saint. Thanks for assuming, though. I do think I am a good person, however.
2. It will probably happen again
3. Despite number one, I still love. I have the same spirit, the same hope- I am still the same reflective person I have always been. Drinking does not change who I am. Sorry.
4. Yes I am aware of what I do. I am aware of the choices and consequences, good and bad.
5. I am falling in love with a guy who I care about very much. And since I love. I show love, I feel love, I want love, I give love. Get it? :)
6. I still love my friends, despite number 1.
7. I am aware that I used to be so against things and end up doing them. I can say that I have been a hypocrite. Now it's time to move on. What else do I need to say? It's been admitted.
8. I don't give up on friends. Whether we never talk for years. Once you have fallen in love (friendship), it's unstoppable.
9. I am not stupid. I know when someone is being judgmental and an idiot. And I feel sorry for you.
I want people to look at me and see "love". Despite the mistakes I've made and despite the fact I am not the picture perfect image you thought I was, does that really matter? It shouldn't.
"I have made my peace."
md.
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| Ella Nitters expo |
[10 Jul 2009|10:16pm] |
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I visited the opening of my dear friend Ella Nitter's exposition at the Bootleg DJ café. Check out her work if you're in the neighbourhood. The work will be up there for an other 2 weeks.
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| I hope the guy I marry sees me this way. And I hope I can be. |
[10 Jul 2009|12:45am] |
And I hope he will be there for me like this, too.
She is Love
Parachute
I've been beaten down,
I've been kicked around,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith,
In my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She's all I need.
Well I had my ways,
They were all in vain,
And she waited patiently.
It was all the same,
All my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
And when that world slows down, dear,
And when those stars burn out, here,
Oh she'll be there.
Yes she'll be there.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She's all I need.
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| Google Fight! |
[08 Jul 2009|10:39am] |
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 It's on. Google's picking a fight with Microsoft and Apple.
Google announced yesterday that Google Mail (aka Gmail), Google Docs and a few other Google web services would no long be 'in beta'. That means it is no longer 'still under construction' but the first official version is 'done'. That means technically speaking, businesses could use this and get support on it. Just like with MS Office. Whether Google will push it as a business app is still a guess though.
Not only that but Google announced it will be releasing the Chrome OS in 2010. Not to be confused with Chrome the Browser. This OS (based on Linux) will initially be created for netbooks (small, lightweight, cheaper laptops focussed mainly for use with the internet). But you can bet your pants it will run a lot of Google Apps, basically making it 'enough' for most light users. And perhaps Google is thinking ahead and already working on something bigger.
Of course that's partially bad news for Microsoft's Windows 7 (released for consumers in October-ish) and it's next OS (which too would be a light web-OS), but also Google's 'friend' Apple. And Google has been nibbling at Apple too for quite a while as this article describes. Google is branching out into markets previously only server by MS & Apple and whether intends to or not, it means there will be trouble.
To be continued.
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| Radiodread |
[07 Jul 2009|11:01am] |
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Despite all the live music at Metropolis, the biggest discovery for me of Sunday was the dj playing this cover of Radiohead's Karma Police in between the gigs:
As a result I looked up the Easy-star all-stars' album Radiodread (reggae/dub cover of Ok Computer) Easy-star's Lonely Hearts Club Band (Sgt. Pepper covered back to back in reggae/dub versions) and The Dub Side of the Moon (Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon in reggae/dub versions). About the Dub Side of the Moon: if you got high just listening to Dark Side, then I assure you, you'll get high without any other medications listen to the Dub Side of the Moon.
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| I know people are busy. |
[07 Jul 2009|12:51am] |
I leave for MN again next Saturday until the 24th. I love Daniel. He makes me so happy in a way a guy has never made me feel. I have never been so excited to see a guy like this. lol
My dad and I had a talk which ended up being okay with me. I am not allowed to come back to Oklahoma until I finish school in St. Cloud. I mean that as in I cannot transfer back if I do not like it. I know my dad. I knew that if it was something that I didn't think was going the way I though it should, I would have to "suck it up" and with that automatic mindset, transferring back was never an option for me. But I am so excited. Despite the cold winters and the probability that I may get stuck in a snow storm when I leave in January, it will be worth it.
I have been working like a mad woman..and I love it because I actually need the money for something important.
♥ md.
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| Birthday at Metropolis & the Dacha |
[06 Jul 2009|12:20pm] |
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Today I turned 33 and as usual, I'm keeping it small and low profile. This evening the D and me are going out for dinner and any one who wishes to drop by today is welcome to do so (which usually means: no one and that's cool with me).
( Metropolis Festival )
After Metropolis, we went to Delft to go to the opening party of the Dacha. The Dacha is the new design studio of Jeroen Visser and Ella Nitters, two friends of mine. A few weeks back I helped them redecorate this cute little former cornershop in the centre of Delft near the canals. It turned out pretty and I hope they both produce great works there.
Afterwards, we had dinner at café the V and had some good talks. It was a good day to celebrate. Today's a good day for working. ;)
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| LOCKED. |
[05 Jul 2009|09:53pm] |
 LOCKED
It's getting to the point that I need to lock these entries. I can't be fully open with what I am talking about anymore because of the access a few people have to this journal.
If you want to read my LJ..you can sign up for an account at http://livejournal.com and add me as a friend OR if you have Facebook, I will post these posts with privacy settings.
Sorry.
md.
http://shoppingchick.livejournal.com
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| .."But how do I feel this good sober?" |
[03 Jul 2009|12:30am] |
I feel like this sometimes.
Sober lyrics
Songwriters: Araica, Marcella; Dioguardi, Kara; Hills, Nate; Moore, Alecia;
I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at four o'clock in the mornin'
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home
Ah, the sun is blindin'
I stayed up again
Oh, I am findin'
That's not the way I want my story to end
I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?
I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
'Cause I won't remember, save your breath
'Cause what's the use?
h, the night is callin'
And it whispers to me softly, "Come and play"
But I, I am fallin'
And if I let myself go I'm the only one to blame
I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down
Spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round
I'm lookin' for myself, sober
Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down
Spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round
Lookin' for myself, sober
When it's good, then it's good, it's so good 'til it goes bad
'Til you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry 'never again'
Broken down in agony, just tryin' find a friend, oh, oh
I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?
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